Us, At This Moment

The Little He: Talking in full sentences, saying words I didn’t know he knew, jumping, running, swimming.  Playing until there is no ounce of energy left in his tiny body.  Reading to himself.  Playing trains over and over and over again.  Coloring and painting.  Creating worlds in his mind.  Pulling the cats tail and in the next second leaning on him telling the cat he loves him.  Free with hugs and kisses.  Shy around strangers.  Laughing the biggest, most fun laugh.  Showing interest in potty training and then changing his mind.  Temper tantrums here and there (thank you, terrible twos).  Kissing me on the forehead when I tell him my head hurts.  Being as sweet as can be.  Getting taller and thinner and looking less and less like a baby and more and more like a little boy.  Happy.

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The Big He: Happier, more content with a new job.  Wrestling on the ground with the little one.  Reading stories and making goofy voices.  Working out and being easily persuaded to eat terribly by me.  Calmer in life, taking pride in our house.  Taking us on trips with the top down on the Jeep and the wind in our hair.  Spoiling me, spoiling him.  Working out ways to allow me to be home with The Little He more often.  Counting down the days until we leave on our vacation (31).  Happy.

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The Me: Taking more time for myself, for my boys.  Enjoying the peacefulness of a workout a few times a week.  Fluctuating in weight and mood.  Forever trying to improve my magazine.  Feeling lost, finding myself, feeling lost again on repeat.  Reading and snuggling and playing trains until I can’t play trains anymore.  Trying to eat better, spend less money, and enjoy the little things.  Sometimes with success, sometimes not.  Spending more time in the fresh air, saying yes to new things.  Continuing to feel the guilt over not being home with The Little He each day, but so enjoying the one day off a week that I get with him.  Picking up book after book and reading instead of working.  Enjoying the distraction from my own mind.  Ordering all of the helpful swim floaties to help The Little He learn to swim.  Happy.